HAPPY NEW YEAR! We are eleven days into 2015, but old habits continue to die hard. Twitter beef and intolerance reign and the year of the big butt has made way for the year of big lips, and the world of Hollywood, entertainment, and media lost legendary people whose contributions to the world and bright personalities won’t ever be forgotten (Joan Rivers, Stuart Scott, Phillip Seymour Hoffman, Robin Williams, Ruby Dee, L’Wren Scott, and Peaches Geldof, Diem Brown, and Casey Kasem to name a handful). Meanwhile, I have been gorging on midseason television premieres and trying hard not to overextend myself this month, which I have surprisingly been successful at doing. This year is all about “letting go”, “shaking it off”, and evolving. Becoming a higher version of myself.
Having said that, words can express how wonderful last year has been for me. There were some frustrations and struggles, but I cannot complain. I moved to New York City, forged on with acting and hosting classes, was accepted to work with PIT TV, finally saw my first UCB Asssscat show (!!!!!), got a new agent, leapt many step towards becoming SAG-AFTRA, auditioned, booked, went to Fashion Week shows as a journalist, filled my brain with movies upon movies upon movies, connected with new and old friends, met family members who accepted me with open arms, questioned myself, became more confident in myself, and reflected on my life thus far. It’s important to reflect, especially for someone such as myself who can keep going and going like an Energizer Bunny with ADHD. When I slow down and really think about my past accomplishments, I get a little emotional and also mad at myself. Mad at myself for letting those demon thoughts creep into my head “What have you really done lately?” “When so-and-so was your age, they already were nominated for such-and-such award/won such-and-such award”, etc. This type of thinking is BS. It really is. Joan Didion is the new face of Celine now. Anything is possible when you are fierce and smart.
There is no legitimate reason to become brainwashed by mantras attached to people that don’t know me, my background, and my talents. I hope that in 2015 people realize that they can accomplish their goals and dreams without succumbing to starvation by juicing. Squash that noise. I will drink kale, celery and apple juice and eat salmon with a side of roasted potatoes, thank you very much! Variety, variety, variety people.
So, for 2015 I hope for peace, love, and happiness with oneself. This blog will go through some changes, which is also what this letter really boils down to. I will be multitasking and not always able to write every day, but I will write! I will just take my time and be more reflective and analyze much more instead of throwing a “What’s Hot or Not” type post. I have been so inspired by Leandra Medine’s Man Repeller blog lately and it’s concept and am thinking that the focus of this blog won’t shift away from the entertainment industry, lest I talk more about my personal experiences coupled with the newest, best television show you should be watching and why. I have seen and heard a lot of crazy in years past, whether en route to auditions, in class, or at a screening and would like to share in a more intimate way. I will also start to write specifically about my journey to Oprah-like proportional success, or something like it, on my friend Le’s food and film website, Tinsel and Tine. She was just gifted the opportunity to be a Brand Ambassador for Lee Daniels’ new TV show on FOX, “Empire”. I am now going from interviewing Hollywood actors, directors, and producers and reviewing films for her site to talking about my desire to be one of those interviewed for my art one day. Praise be to her for even asking me to be a part of her website as a writer from the first moment we met, based on a mutual friend’s suggestion.
I’m going harder in 2015, but smarter. Saying no when my instincts tell me so. Learning to embrace difficulty. Writing more. Realizing projects that have been in my head for years. Going to more gigs, museums, art shows, and plays. Getting started on my YouTube channel. Reading young adult books, new adult books, and everything in between, and making sure that I write the debrief about these experiences and more on this blog. Here’s to a new year and new beginnings.